I like being down, its the one time i admire conceptual/ dark art and listen to clam music. again this is one of those times.... it seems i cant act like this around other people as they just are not used to it, or wouldnt like me for it.... either way i like to have these quiet times. maybe some people do different things? well theres another 6 billion so i spose they do......

this is the first journal udate in a long while. and to be honest i never left DA iv jsut let my profile grow some cobwebs.

its always late when i seem to be writing on this. im always tired and have something important to do in the morning. so i always seem to be in the one type of mood : my worst.

but if u care to read ill throw down when iv been up to for a while....
finished 1st year college is prob the main, im contempt with my exams .. havent got results yet... i cant repeat any exams because im off interrailling again for 5 weeks at the end of summer with my cousin. so if i do fail i think ill jsut get an apprentership... but then again i mite stay in europe and work for a year... its nice to have options..

but i spose thats the business side of things.. i havent even picked up a camera in a long while... i have left kickboxing for a life of excess in the city now as i sit on the sofa back in the hometown i feel lonely and that i have left a good routine of sport and school to work and sleep and general obediance to the machine... i think i will start taking more walks and keep a camera handy and see what happens.....
as u may see i got a bit bored during the exam time and spend some time on photoshop.. i think i need more of a purpose if i want to work with editing or creating pictures as normaly i jsut throw things down.

anyway... again , i doubt anyone will read this or care but i like to write and, again, im just in one of those moods..

hilights of the last year: new college mates, concerts/gigs, living with the lads in griffith, getting a set of decks, learning in general

regrets: not keeping up sport, not keeping a job and especially falling out of taking photos and art.... spose that what ya get from doing an engineering course. and smoking.... god damed smoking

things to look forward to: traveling with work. interrailling. second year college. meeting a girl seems to be forefront in my mind alot..........

maybe there will be better news on this next year? who knows....

"ive been here before, sat on the floor. in a grey, grey mood. where i stay up all night and all that i write is a grey, grey tune."

either way theres no point in repeating what i said in the last journal.
have a good1